Vitriolic Catharsis

Warning, the kid gloves are off in this post. Go away if you don't want to be triggered.

Vg unf orra dhvgr fbzr gvzr, naq V unir orra nygreangvat orgjrra frrguvat va fvyrag natre naq dhvrg npprcgnapr bs jung unf unccrarq. V unir gevrq gb sbetvir, ohg V sbhaq vg ynpxvat. V unir gevrq gb sbetrg, ohg bayl gvzr pna cebivqr rabhtu qvfgnapr sbe vg gb jbex zber rssrpgviryl.

Gur natre vf ng gur ybff bs qernzf bs gur shgher. Gur gevttre vf fhecevfvatyl onany---gur nofbyhgr erzbiny bs nyy Tbbtyr qbphzragf gung jrer bapr funerq orsber nobhg ohpxrg yvfgf naq bgure funerq gubhtugf nobhg gur shgher gung jr jrer cynaavat gb unir gbtrgure.

V chg va guvatf gung V jnagrq gb qb jvgu ure nf cneg bs bhe ohpxrg yvfg, guvatf gung V crefbanyyl jbhyq jnag gb qb ng fbzr cbvag ohg arire ernyyl gubhtug zhpu nobhg gvyy fur pnzr vagb zl yvsr naq jr jrer ng n yriry gung V gubhtug jnf ernql gb urnq ba gb gur shgher gbtrgure.

Fur qryrgrq gur ragver qbphzrag. V arire unq gur punapr gb znxr n onpx-hc sbe vg---vg jnf n yvivat qbphzrag, V jnfa'g rkcrpgvat vg gb or tbar whfg yvxr gung gur zbzrag V npxabjyrqtrq erprvcg bs gur oernx-hc yrggre.

Shpx.

Juvyr gur zrgncubevpny ybff bs n shgher vf zber be yrff tbggra bire, gur npghny culfvpny ybff bs erpbeqf bs n funerq shgher sbe zr gb hagnatyr onpx gb jung jnf bevtvanyyl zvar naq jung jnfa'g vf jung znqr zr yncfr vagb natre rire fb bsgra.

Fbeel Ybeq, V pnaabg sbetvir---V npxabjyrqtr gung guvf jvyy or zl nyongebff sbe dhvgr fbzr gvzr gb pbzr. V fcrag zber guna svir lrnef jvgu guvf jbzna, gnxvat zl gvzr gb pnershyyl ohvyq hc gehfg jvgu ure, znxvat pbzcebzvfrf nybat gur jnl erfcbafvoyr nqhygf qb gb erfbyir ceboyrzf. Jr obgu npxabjyrqtrq gung pbzzhavpngvba jnf xrl, naq V jnf qbvat zl orfg gb zrrg gubfr rkcrpgngvbaf nf orfg nf V pbhyq, xabjvat shyy jryy gung V jnf zber bs gur xvaq gb abg gnyx zhpu nobhg zlfrys va trareny, rira va fvghngvbaf jurer V xarj gung V pbhyq abg pbzzhavpngr jung V jnf srryvat---V fgvyy gevrq gb yrg ure xabj bs zl cerqvpnzrag.

Jung V tbg va erghea jnf zber guna whfg n fync va gur snpr, be n fgno va gur purfg. Vg jnf n evccvat bs gur ovg bs zl fbhy gung V unq funerq jvgu ure.

V qvqa'g whfg ybfr gur ybir bs zl yvsr gura; V ybfg n ovt puhax bs zlfrys nf jryy.

Gung shpxvat uheg.

Vg jnf bayl irel erpragyl gung V znantrq gb gnxr fgbpx bs whfg ubj zhpu qnzntr V jnf uvg jvgu.

Zl vagrerfg va zhfvp unf qebccrq gb cerpvcvgbhf yriryf, juvpu jnf abg urycrq ol gelvat pbaqvgvbaf gung PBIVQ-19 unf oebhtug nybat jvgu erfcrpg gb erurnefnyf naq cresbeznaprf. V qvqa'g rira jnag gb cvpx hc zl syhgr/qvmv/jungrire vafgehzrag gb cynl. V qvqa'g rira jnag gb jevgr nal zhfvp, naq gurer jrer gvzrf jurer V jnf gblvat jvgu gur vqrn bs fryyvat/qvfcbfvat nyy bs gur zhfvp vafgehzragf gung V unir.

Zl gnfgr va ivqrb tnzrf unir nyfb punatrq, juvyr zl vagrerfgf va gurz unir fgnegrq jnavat nf jryy. V nz nyfb fgnegvat gb trg jnel bs ernqvat, naq nz rira zber bs n fuhg-va guna orsber.

V cnff rnpu qnl nf vg vf. Vs gurer'f n gnfx gb or qbar, V pbzcyrgr vg jvgubhg srryvat zhpu. Znlor n fznyy frafr bs fngvfsnpgvba, ohg gung'f nobhg vg. Gurer vf ab bar gb funer zl qnl jvgu, naq V unir fgnegrq gb abg obgure jvgu jnagvat gb funer jung vf rssrpgviryl n ebhgvar qnl.

Gur hetr gb whfg vfbyngr naq xrrc va fgnfvf gb nibvq perngvat arj zrzbevrf naq trarengvat snyfr shgherf vf rire-vapernfvat. Bayl erfcbafvovyvgl unf xrcg zr sebz tbvat nyy-va ba guvf cngu.

V pna'g frrx uryc---jung xvaq bs uryc vf gurer gb or fbhtug? FVA pvgl unf fuvggl zragny urnygupner gb ortva jvgu, naq V senaxyl qb abg arrq gur fgvtzn va jung vf rffragvnyyl n tybevsvrq ``qrirybcrq'' pbhagel jvgu n fgebat qrirybcvat pbhagel zvaqfrg. Nf sne nf fbpvrgl vf pbaprearq, V'z fgvyy shapgvbany---jurgure be abg V nz shpxrq va gur urnq vf bs ab pbaprea gb fbpvrgl ng ynetr.

V qba'g rira jnag gb ratntr jvgu npdhnvagnaprf naq/be sevraqf gung zhpu, orpnhfr V xabj gung gurl pnaabg uryc zr, naq gung V qba'g jnag gb chyy gurz qbja gb zl yriry---gurl unir gurve bja snzvyvrf gb ybbx bhg sbe, naq gurl ner nyfb abg nqrdhngryl rdhvccrq gb uryc zr naljnl.

Orfvqrf, jnf V ernyyl ybbxvat sbe uryc sebz gurz?

V arire jnag gb pbagnpg ure ntnva---fur unf gnxra njnl zhpu bs jung znqr zr uhzna njnl sebz zr, nyy va ure frysvfu jnlf hfvat gur Ybeq'f anzr nf ure svt yrns. V bayl pbagnpgrq ure gung bar gvzr gb shysvyy n cebzvfr V znqr; V unir abg pbagnpgrq ure rire fvapr. Bu naq gur tnyy gb cersnpr n frrzvat bssre bs na byvir oenapu bs n pbssrr jvgu ``...vs lbh ner pbzsbegnoyr''.

Jryy, shpx gung. Shpx univat ure npgvbaf yvivat erag-serr va zl urnq nyy gurfr juvyr. Gung jnf gur ynfg wno gung V jbhyq rire gnxr sebz ure---ab zber.

Gurer. V'ir fcrjrq vg nyy bhg urer. Creuncf guvf jvyy uryc zr er-senzr guvatf zber pbzsbegnoyl naq svanyyl zbir gur shpx ba.