Had I Chosen Wrong?

So here's a quandary. To have people empathise with one on something, one needs to share/talk about the said something. In contrapositive terms, if one does not share/talk about the said something, then people will not [have a reason to] empathesize with one on the something.

The quandary comes when the said something either cannot be easily talked about because of a lack of the appropriate concretisation of the said thing, or because it is something that is bound by other rules/regulations akin to omertà. At that point, what can one do?

Of course, the easiest recourse is to pray---to speak to God. Prayer is good, prayer is necessary. The most pious will also say that prayer is sufficient, but I'm more base, and therefore am unsure. Yes, we are but sojourners through this world, with our Lord holding our places for the next world once He raises us from the death that we all undergo having lived out our lives in this world.

Meanwhile though, there is this pesky situation where we're still living in this world, with all its sin-sickness, and while our mortal bodies slowly age out and decay.

How then is one to live?

Personally, I just suck it up, and at various times, shout in to the void that is the 'net through this blog, and others. But I know the limits of the medium---I can keep on shouting into it forever, even as the bot-masters try to squeeze out whatever bits of originality they can from a source that is still untainted by generative AI output, but nothing ever happens from all these shouting, at least not directly.

The best that I can hope for is that with enough expunging of the negativity that is within my immediate thought-space, I can generate enough capacity to take on more of the new negativity that is out there that is coming straight at me, without completely losing all my marbles.

``But MT, that's sounds stupid---why do you even put yourself in the position where absorbing negativity is a thing in the first place?''

Not a day passes by where I do not ask myself this question. There were two moments in my life that I could have changed paths, one back in 2009, and one back in 2021, and in either, I came back to the same one of operating in the ICT/AI space in Singapore.

Had I chosen wrong?