Purest of Pain

I think that this describes things fairly well now...

Purest of Pain by Son by Four

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...

It was so... sudden.

How am I supposed to feel now?

I think I should stop here instead of posting more things... there are probably some things that I need to learn to withhold, and others that I should put up. A whole plethora of conflicting emotions. Me needs to sort out some things that are inside me. *sighs*

Holy crap.